My question to Linda was about self-forgiveness. There is one step from feeling of guilt to depression. Forgiveness brings out the miracle of personal transformation and growth. Yet the challenge is to actually make it happen.
How to forgive yourself if you have deep feelings of guilt

One thing I have learned Gleb, is that all feelings are preceded by thinking. If I am THINKING I am not as good as the next person, or thinking about my past and there is nothing I can do to change the past, or thinking I am a failure about something, then my actions toward myself and others seem to follow that line of thinking. It is what I send out to others.
But if I THINK I am a loving, caring, compassionate person, then my actions tend to follow and then I feel alot better about myself. It takes practice to bring your thinking into here and now and not stay in the past or the future.
And self forgiveness for me has come from trying not to repeat the thoughts and actions that make me feel bad about myself. There is not one thing we can do to change the past, but we can create a new past for ourself by trying to love ourself.
A very interesting thing was brought to my attetention very early in soberiety, someone ask me how I thought I was smarter than God....Hmmm
Of course I needed that explained to me and the answer was, if God saw fit to forgive me, then who did I think I was for not giving myself that same gift? Hmmm again!
It is not a one time deal, it takes practice and awareness to catch myself if I am thinking negative thoughts about myself. If the thought is true, then I need to take action to change it. Another thing that was very helpful was to "Act as if". For me it was to act as if I loved myself, to act as if I others had forgiven me. It amazed me that I started to notice I was feeling better about myself.
I don't know what your past issues are, and some are more serious than others. One thing I had to forgive myself for was being a drug addict and not being the best Mom I could have been. But I also know, had I known another way to do things, I would have.
I also had "ignorance" explained in a way I understood. It did not mean I was stupid, it meant I was ignoring my choices. You and I have been very blessed to live in a time where we have many choices to get healthy and lead a loving and caring life. Maybe you could add some other practices in with the ones you do now. I do "here and now", but I also pray. You could maybe ask God to show you how to forgive yourself. Then we have a responsiblity to be aware, to pay attention to the ways he shows us.
You apparently have a "searching soul" by the wonderful website you have set up for others to explore possibilites for their life. There are many beautiful self-affirming things to read and explore. Pray for guidance. I would think the good work you are doing for others is one example of self-forgiveness. It takes many forms, Gleb, just keep an open mind.
If I can expand on any of my experiances, please ask for specifics. I have no secrets and would love to share anything with you that would help you to be the man you want to be.
I appreciate and value your search for a meaningful life.